Red Shirt

  I am a 'red shirt' in the coming civil war. I am not particularly clever, brave or tough. I am not very knowledgeable. I have had a meaningless life, it is likely that i will have an almost meaningless death. This is what i mean by 'red shirt', just like the TV show. No one will miss me, few will ever know that i lived.
Still here i am.
White. Male. Heterosexual. Atheist. Racist. Misogynist. You can add others if you like.
I hate Islam and Muslims. I hate Jews. I hate non whites.
I hate those who side with them or pity them.

My arrival at this point:

   I used to be a Buddhist, form my early teens to my early twenties. I was never very 'good' at it but i was sincere at least. I drifted away from Buddhism as i got older though i don't dislike it, i just disagree with it and no longer believe it.
   I was always a little concerned by the people coming into Britain and other white countries and the special treatment they got, but like most of us i dismissed my unease with misplaced trust in the political and social establishment and the belief that they were 'just a minority'. The thought that 'our' leaders, police and media were actively hostile and betraying us was nonsense to me. Its not that i liked them, it was just that i didn't understand how far from us they are. Or how corrupt and twisted.
   As i got older and became more aware of things i became a self proclaimed libertarian. Individual self determination was my mantra. It helped to deal with the stress and anxiety. As a coward i simply washed my hands of the problem. You cant commit genocide on an autonomous collection of individuals after all (although you can still kill them), and it allowed me to vent my feelings without risking being called racist or Islamophobic. I was condemning the specific individuals, not their group and thus was off the hook if anyone questioned my views. Like many libertarians i tried reading Atlas shrugged and like most i got about a third of the way through before selecting one of (((Rand's))) slimmer works.
   Needless to say, libertarianism was unable to ease my qualms for long.
   In many ways i still have individualist leanings, i am one after all. But i no longer see it as a social ideal. It is insufficient to the survival of our race. Indeed, it is unable even to recognise this as important.
   Over the years i have occasionally flirted with far right ideologies although never seriously. I once visited 'Stormfront' for a few hours, just lurking and reading. I was not impressed, it was just another forum with a swastika pasted on it. I just sighed and got on with my life, such as it was. This consisted largely of tranquillising myself with books, games, porn, food and work.
   Over the years i have progressed through periods of depression and nihilism, as have we all i suppose. I sometimes think a person that has never experienced and come to terms with these things is not a whole human. Nihilism is reality or at least appears to be to me, its only a burden if you shy away from it i find. For the record, i do not consider my views on race and the coming civil war a reaction to nihilism, neither do i derive my values from it. Nihilism does form part of my world view and informs my actions nonetheless.
   A few years ago now i was watching some youtube videos, game trailers and music i think. I had always avoided the personal stuff on there because i imagined it was just obnoxious teens trash talking each other and so forth. For some reason i clicked on a suggested video, i think it may have been by Sargon of Akkad (it was the name that probably caught my attention, since i had been reading about the historical figure not long before). I think it was an anti feminist talk. I had never been on social media or discussed my concerns with anyone so you can imagine i was quite surprised, i had no idea that other people felt similarly to myself. I became slightly obsessed, i watched everything i could; TL;DR, Karen Straughan, Sandman, Studio Brulee etc . . . From their i started visiting Breitbart, Chateau Hartiste, American Renaissance, VDare and from these i 'graduated' to the Daily Stormer, Counter Currents, Morgoths Review, Western Spring and others.
   As you can see, my views have developed . . .
   I do not consider myself a true Fascist or National Socialist, in all honesty i don't care what our politics is as long as it serves the white race and enables our survival as a strong autonomous people beholden to none.
   The 14 words: 'We must secure the existence of our people and a future for white children' is my mantra now. No one else is going to do it for us or even permit us to do it.
   The nature of our fight isn't politics, culture, society, religion or even nation although it is fought partly in these spheres. This is a fight unlike any our race has ever engaged in on such an absolute scale. This is Total War since we are fighting for the very survival of our race and absolutely every sacrifice and atrocity is justified by this goal. Anything that fulfils the criteria of the sacred 14 words is correct, anything that impedes it is incorrect. I recognise the horror of these words and what they lead to.

All white people, every one of us, has a choice:
   1. We remain, as a people; good, moral, compassionate, kind and decent.
   2. We become, as a people; hard, ruthless, cruel and racist.

   The first option results in our continuing emotional and moral blackmail and annihilation by demographics, rape and murder at the hands of subhuman filth who are incapable of anything else.
   The second results in our people having a fighting chance of surviving the 21st century intact. But the price we pay is that we must become monsters.
   Pick one, their is no third option.
   Neither are nice, both result in civil war and genocide of someone. It doesn't matter who is better or who deserves it. Words such as Justice, fairness, freedom and human rights have no place or purpose anymore except as weapons with which to harm us. Their is no where to hide, running is pointless.
   It cant be voted out of happening or argued away.
   Which do you value more, your precious morals and individual civil liberties or a future for our race?
We must secure the existence of our people and a future for white children.
As i wrote at the beginning:
   I am a 'red shirt' in the coming civil war. I am not particularly clever, brave or tough. I am not very knowledgeable. I have had a meaningless life, it is likely that i will have an almost meaningless death. This is what i mean by 'red shirt', just like the tv show. No one will miss me, few will ever know that i lived.
Still here i am. If anyone reads this i will be surprised.